A New Start...

So...

The last time you heard from me I was engaged, living with my fiancée, planning a wedding and complaining about being asked when we were going to have kids. A lot has changed for me since then, some good and some bad.

The last six months have been a roller coaster of emotions for me. I had been wrestling with some personal demons and it all peaked for me in July (had been going on for a while before then, not entirely sure when it started) and then me and my fiancée broke up in August. It's not something I'm going to go into right now, I may do at a later date but I'm not sure yet.

So at 25 I moved back in with my parents, I love being back home (although sometimes feel like I get a bit in the way, mainly with how much stuff I have haha) but I'm hoping to get my own place within the next year or two. I know I want to move away, not entirely sure where to or even how far away but it's something I'm looking into.

I started my own business, selling Younique cosmetics and skin care products, it's going remarkably well, better than I could have imagined and I can't wait to see where I am in just a year with it! Through it I have met some amazing and inspirational people and I can't wait to spend more time with them all. My confidence has grown tenfold and I now wear make-up daily and am dressing a lot nicer.

My weight has increased, I was doing very well with my weight loss and Slimming World but have lost my way with it. I am still going to the meetings, I fear that if I stopped completely then my weight would just balloon and I'd lose interest completely. Currently it doesn't bother me too much that I have put weight on but I don't want to get much bigger really.

As can be expected when going through a big life change I go through periods of heightened emotions, both good and bad. Most days are good but I still get really bad days, days when all I want to do is lock myself away and sleep. I feel that I am a lot more emotional now, I certainly cry more which is not a bad thing.

The last week has been very hard. We had some bad news in the family last Tuesday and since then my head has just been a wreck. It's brought a lot of bad memories and thoughts to the surface for me and through that I've had a lot to think about.

I think going through stuff like that does that to you though, makes you re-evaluate, consider where you are in your life and what things you really want in the future. It certainly has with me. Spent a lot of time thinking about the future and what I want for myself, it's scary and exciting having no idea where you're life might be in a year or two. Plus I'm an over thinker which never helps!

Anyway, bit of a long post but a lot to cover! Thanks for reading!

xXx

April Favorites 2015!

Hello!

This year is flying over, I can't believe it's May already! I thought I would do a post detailing a few items that I have enjoyed using a lot this month, as I didn't start the blog that long ago I'm just going to do three items for this month, so here they are:

1 - Food Diary

I purchased this food diary from eBay, you can get food diary sheets from Slimming World for free but I am getting closer to my target and wanted to have them all in one place so I can look back on them. The main reason for this is once I'm at my target I can keep a record of the weeks that I've maintained my weight and what I did food and exercise wise that week. 

The diary I got is not an official one but it is laid out for people following SW, so it has space for your healthy extras, syns and free foods, as well as exercise and notes for the week; each week also features a menu planner and a weekly summary for the end of the week, which I love! In the front of the book there are pages for tracking your weight every week, body magic (exercise) awards, monthly measurements, before and after pictures and pages for your favorite recipes! I'm in love with it and have been filling it in religiously! This one will last a full year and I will definitely be purchasing one for next year!

2 - Sprinkle of Chatter

Sprinkle of Chatter is Louise Pentland's vlog channel and her secondary channel on YouTube, her primary channel is Sprinkle of Glitter which I also love, but lately I have found myself just watching my way through all of her old vlogs.

I find they're just easy to watch and it's been lovely watching her little girl going to Disney World and such as well as just seeing what Louise does day to day.

3 - Journal

I'd recently read "20 Things To Do When You're 30 That Will Make Life Better At 50" now I'm only 24 but after reading it I realised a lot of them were changed I was currently trying to make in my life anyway. One thing stuck out to me thought which was no. 18 Keep a Journal. It's something I've always wanted to do but I would normally start one and then only write in it once or twice and then just stop. When I was in TK Maxx at the weekend (haul post will follow soon!) for some home and wedding bits and I saw this lovely note book in amongst the book shelves.

After having a little look at the layout inside I decided it would be the perfect book to start my journal in. I've been doing well with it so far and it's nice to have a  private place to write your thoughts and just to vent when you feel like it!

Anyway that is my favorites for April! Thank you for reading and if you have any questions or comments then please leave them in the comment section below!

xXx

Lucky in Life?

A few months ago I had someone at work tell me how lucky I had been in life. She had been talking to me about the (what seemed like) mass of problems that she was going through and afterwards had asked about a few things in my life, such as my:

Weight-loss

Home

Fiancée

Wedding

Work

Life in general

I replied that they were all good, "You're so lucky, you have a perfect life" was her reply, I told her that no one was perfect and left it at that, but it's been repeatedly playing on my mind. I'm not saying I have a bad life, currently my life is very good, we all have ups and downs, good days and bad, but it felt like she seemed to think that everything had just been handed to me and that I'd never had to work at anything.

Me and my partner have been together for almost 9 years and have had some amazing times but also times when we felt overwhelmed and that we weren't going to last much longer. However we have worked at our relationship and have come out stronger for it. We have a wonderful house that we're hoping will last for most of our lives but in order to get this house we had to work hard and save for years just for the deposit.

My work is something I love but it's taken me a long time to get to the stage that I have and on the way I've had some jobs that I hated, one of which came close to driving me into depression. Even the amazing job that I not have has had it's bumps in the road, working 6 day weeks (which included 4 hours traveling a day) for a low wage, then having work to do at home on top of that, while hardly getting to see my partner, was extremely difficult and tiring but has all been worth it.

My weight is something I have a had years struggling with and I have let other people deter me instead of doing what was best for me. I'm finally in a place where I am making better, lifelong changes to my life for my health and I've never felt better!

The only thing I can say I was truly lucky to have in my life are the two amazing people that raised me to be the person I am today. I come from a very stable, loving and supportive home and couldn't imagine my life without my parents, they have done so much for me throughout my life and have always said that they don't care what I do in life, as long as I am happy, and that is what I am... Happy! 

Not lucky, just happy. 

If you can learn to be happy and appreciative with what you have in life then I believe you'll always feel lucky.

xXx